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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I don't think I've experienced this sort of zen and calmness is a long long time. There is so much to do and potentially freak out about, but I am neither freaking out, nor getting my head bogged down. Positivity is sooo underrated. 'Nothing will come of nothing.' And similarly, positivity will breed positivity. It's karma of a different level. I will be happy and good to others because I choose to. Not because there is something in it for me at the end of the day, but because I want to be happy and nice. And that will start the cycle of happiness and niceties. And being nice to people I care for, or even people I don't know, makes me feel good about myself.There is no secret, it's all just mind over matter. You will get what you set yourself out to get. The universe will conspire against you and lead you where you want to go. You just need to be in the right head space with the right attitude.Now my task will be to maintain this attitude and mindset in Singapore.London will, no doubt, be trying, but I believe there is so much room for growth in those 6 weeks. It may seem like a holiday to most; a physical holiday, but I know it will test my mental endurance and strength and push it to an altogether higher level. 6 weeks is a lot and yet too little time to learn and grow. But learn and grow I will in that 6 weeks. The world is my oyster. Everything has worked out perfectly this far. And I believe it will continue to be a calm journey. By no means smooth sailing, but it will be calm, and I need to be calm and open and positive.I feel good about this. I am in control of my life, and I don't think there ever was a time before when I was in as much control of my life as I am now, and it gives me an utmost sense of satisfaction and joy to know that every step I take is my decision. Every sacrifice I make is my own. Every bridge is cross is my journey. This feels good. This is what I need: freedom, growth, independence, and that hint of the danger of the 'what if'. Knowing I could fall flat on my face but not listening to the nagging doubts and charging headstrong into the challenge. I know what mettle I am made of and I refuse to be brought down by my ego.One needs to throw away the ego, ignore the judge on the shoulder, to do great things. And I am ready. And I believe have the right companion to boost me along the way. I am truly blessed. And I have had too many people randomly telling me things along the way to reiterate that decision and give me support for me to develop any doubt in myself.
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