I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
~ Light In Your Eyes, Blessed Union of Soul

Ouch. Such beauty and poetry. I love finding old gems from the past. And finally being able to relate to that shit. When ages ago, all I could do was sympathise. Now I empathise.

Maybe I need to move on from Stage 2 of the process. Cynicism and bitterness worked. But that was then. The challenge now is to find the balance. Not to throw caution into the wind and go 'Fuck this shit, I'm moving on because I can do better and I will', but to walk on with my head held high and my dignity intact, saying 'I've been to hell and back'.

Sometimes the love that you lose is the love you find
Sometimes the pain is the doorway to peace of mind
No matter how hard you try you just can't rewind
Now that you know - where do you go?
I guess in my own way
Just like the her I'm wandering, wondering runaway
But aren't we all just
Looking for a place to land
Looking for a friend to call
Looking for a destination, conversation, fascination
To protect us from the fall
Looking for the one to love
Looking for a brand new day
Looking for a reason to stand
Looking for a place to land
~ Looking for a Place to Land, Dakota Moon

Let my inner peace find me.


And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished, yeah
It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a loss before you've found it
It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la
~ Life is Wonderful, Jason Mraz

Remember this. And maybe I'll find my peace?