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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
12th August 2007 - A day of firsts
The first time I went skiing. And did very well for a first timer.First time I had ever see that many stars in the sky. We were 5 hrs out of the city, and there wasn't a single light aside from the occasional car on the road, and the iridescent stars in the sky. I swear, I had never seen the sky filled with that many stars. It was simply breath-taking. I sat in the back seat of the car and stared at the stars for an hour. Never before have I seen brighter stars in the sky. I used to think those pictures of the constellations were crap, cuz one can't see all those stars. But I was wrong. It is possible. I was just never presented with the opportunity. I could see all the stars of the constellations, and even those not belonging to any constellation. I even saw the Milky Way. How amazing is that? That faint white shadow just extending from the bottom of the Big Dipper. It was divine. I felt like I was communing with some ancient energy. I was in awe. I was at peace. I was attuned to the cosmos. It was surreal. I miss it. When will I ever get the chance to experience that again? I feel like a little girl who's just been let in on a grand secret, and I want more. Ah well, such is life. I'm sure the stars and I will meet again. Just think on it, those very light rays hitting my retina at that precise moment were rays that have travelled trillions of miles and are millions of years old. How humbling is that thought? I feel so insignificant and humanised ; it's beautiful. I need more moments like this in my life.The Bacchae opens tomorrow. I am strangely calm. It will be great. It is great. I need to start looking at the big picture, and out of my own consciousness.I think I'm a naturally paranoid person when it comes to my relations with people. I read into every little gesture and sign, and interpret the worst. And I'm so super sensitive to the slightest things. It's terrible. I need to get over this childlike approach and start taking things less personally. It's not all about you Daphne, remember that.
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