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We weren't born with a name, we were given a name. A hedgehog doesn't have a name. It's just a nameless thing with a handful of flesh and skin and a beating heart. A hedgehog doesn't even know it doesn't have a name.
 
 
   
 
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
 
And if you thought this girl was without claws, oh no no... Big mistake. How wrong you will be. It's natural selection; aclimatising; fitting in; learning the ways of the world; being smart; streetwise. Call it whatever you must, but this girl has got some bite. When you find you're pushed to a point where you don't care anymore, not totally true, if I didn't care at all I wouldn't be writing this post, hmmm. But when you find you're pushed to a point where you just explode 'That's it. Fuck it. Whatever.', that's when the mice start streaming out to play. The tiny mice with their vindictive little scheming teeth. Oh I can be sneaky, dirty and contemptible alright. You just have to push me far enough. Daphne's bark may be worse than her bite, on the rare occasion when she does bark, but ho ho, the bark's infused with a new bite now. (How bad was that pun? heheh)

There's a limit to what I can take, and seriously, a person can't stay nice forever, I can't stick my head in the sand and ignore all that's going on around me. You get what you give, and if you're going to be a dirty foul bastard who breaks all the rules, don't expect me to play nice. I may not stoop to their level, that's cause I have dignity and morals, but believe me, I'm capable of dirty tricks as well.

I used to think that I wasn't one of those people who played mind games and silly childish vindictive power games. Oh well, maybe people do change. They adapt. *purrr*

On a lighter note, on my way out of the washroom in the performing arts centre, the door opposite the ladies bathroom door was open and I peeked in and saw the hot dude sitting at the computer doing his stuff. We'd been subtly making eye contact for a while, and I was always shy and looked away and didn't want to be too direct. But today, I was on a roll!!!!! So I maintain eye contact with him whenever he passes, at least 2 secs, ranging to 4-5 secs, which is an eternity really, when you're staring into a stranger's eyes. And whenever I pass his office and he hears me talking he'll look up just as I pass. Heh.
SO, he walks pass, I'm lying on my belly in the foyer, I stare at him, he meets my eyes, we maintain eye contact for like, 4 secs, and then he averts his eyes to the other direction and there's a slight hint of a smile on his lips!! How exciting!!! Tell me that doesn't mean something! Come ON!!!!
SO, bottom line is, I had a random CRAZY idea. It's merely a passing thought, I was nowhere near putting it into action. Well, to be perfectly honest, I almost did, heheh but the fear of humiliation put me off. So, I walk out of the washroom, he's seated at his computer in his office, and I have this strong urge to walk straight into his office, shut the door behind me, and just stand against the door and see what happens. Isn't that a rad idea?!?~!?~ I think it's so totally interesting to see what happens!!!!!!! Wouldn't it? Don't get me wrong, I'm not prostituting myself or anything, not literally anyway. But it's be great just to see what his reaction would be. Hmmm. Maybe I might put that idea into action the next time I get a chance. Heheh. Might wanna consult some people first. Cause they reckon he's pretty up himself and thinks he's all that. I reckon he's just a softie with a tough front who's afraid of rejection. Very much like me. Well, the old me. The new me's a tad bit more brazen and out there. Which is great! So I really should put my plan into action eh? We'll see heheh.

So not only is she a promiscuous minx, she's also mean and bitchy, and a tease. Yowser! Here she comes!!!!

 

 
   
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