Maybe i could be the one they adore
That could be my reputation
It's where i'm from that lets them think i'm a whore
I'm an educated virgin

Sleepwalker, don't be shy
Now don't open your eyes tonight
You'll be the one that defends my life
While i'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam cooke didn't know what i know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me
And god only know that i've tried

Let me in, let me drown or learn how to swim
Just don't leave me at the window
I could be the one to be your next best friend
You may need someone to hold you

Sleepwalker, take this knife
You may see someone tonight
You'd be the one that saves my life
When i'm dead asleep dreamin'

I'm in your movie and everyone looks sad
But i can hear you, your voice, the laughtrack
But you never saw my best scene
The one where i sleep
Sleepwalk into your dreams

Now, sleepwalker, what's my line
It's only a matter of time
Until i learn to open up my eyes
When i'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam cooke didn't know what i know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me

Now, the sleepwalker in me
Now, the sleepwalker in me
And god only know that i've tried

have u ever felt like u wanted something but u're just too tired to try anymore?

and now after e huge boulders of uni application r over, along comes a more immediate task......... monday.........

morning: move stuff from wildrice to reh studio
1130hrs: rush to myopia show
1315hrs: rush back to reh studio
1315-1815hrs: cinderel-lah reh
1815hrs: rush to arty party reh
1900-2300hrs: arty party reh

oh wow~! just realised i dun even have time to eat~! how comforting~! sigh.......
y do i do this to myself? know what? enough of self-pity......... i'll just do what i can........ i can't help it if i'm late.......... a gal's gotta eat when a gal's gotta eat..........

i know what my main gripe is....... that i'm a bloody sm.......... and y did i take on e job in e first place when i very clearly told myself i never wanna sm again after e horrible first try?
a) cuz i'm stupid and naive
b) cuz i'm naive enough to think that e 2nd time'll b better
c) cuz i wanna b optimistic and give sm-in a 2nd shot
d) cuz i'm greedy
e) cuz i'd have nothing better to do
f) cuz i see it as an opportunity, a stepping stone to get to know more ppl
g) cuz i over-estimated myself and am takin on more than i can handle
h) cuz i wanna gain exp
i) cuz it's wildrice
........... can i think of any more?

i nearly got myself and ivan heng killed today............ very wise move eh? i'd have turned e whole theatre circle against e quah family...... and that wld b e end of my career in spore...... or even asia........ i dunno what possessed me to not check for oncomin traffic and follow e car in front blindly.......... and i REALLY mean killed......... if e car travelling towards us hadn't been more alert and swerved and hit e brakes, and ended up a mere metre in front of reuben in a weird position, i wld b wormfood now and reuben wld have a concave right side......... what's wrong w me? is God tryin to tell me sth? i really think i'd get involved in a car accident one day........ really........... i even entertain thoughts of dyin in a crash......... very comforting....... i just dun wanna crash and burn........ just crashin alone's fine.............. leave out e burning.......

mayb i shldn't get hitched or married........... so i won;t have to account to anyone......... so if anything happens to me, there'll b less heartache in e world........ and i can do whatever i want whenever i want without anyone bothering me............ good.
give me my space........ i want my space..........

as cherrie said, it's weighing e pros and cons and deciding that u want e pros enough to decide to live w e cons.......... life's a gamble, nothing's ever definite....... u can't even count on ur loved ones........ u can only count on urself....... and have i decided? do i want blessed love and warmth and commitment? or is it swinging fun and endless partying without havin to answer to anyone? only time will tell