Endless hours of Being
Endless minutes of Nothingness

it's interesting how backstage ppl are constantly in want of supply, whereas actors r positively teeming by e brim........ and how backstage ppl r so chinese-oriented i feel odd speakin to em in english..... yet some of their counterparts, the actors, couldn't speak proper mandarin to save their lives.......... and the common perception is that actors generally come from well-to-do families.... how interesting..........

me: calltime's at 10am tomoro.......... and we might have to stay til 10pm.....
actor: ***reluctance in voice*** huh...... so late ah? aiyoh...... long day tomoro........
me: ***thinking*** darlin, u're e one who comes and goes according to e schedule.... we come evry friggin day one hr before u guys do and stay on hours after u guys leave....... u only gotta b here frm10am-10pm tomoro..... yet we've gotta b there 930am and after u guys go home for ur beauty sleep we still gotta pack up and bump-out of e bloody studio and bump-in to e theatre that same night and we'll b stayin up through e night and into e next morning and through the next day and probably going home at night if we're lucky....... u're saying u got a long day ahead? well i say bollocks

how do they do it? i could never dedicate my time to endless waiting in rehearsals doing absolutely nothing and packing up after evryone else and being a runner........ i am not that noble..........

give me a character and costume and i'll give it my all

histrionism
i'm a terrible stage manager.......... i dun pay attention durin rehearsals....... in fact, i pay attention to e wrong things during rehearsal........... i dun listen to e director and take notes...... i watch e actor and see how they explore their characters........ how they grow into character and develop their characters......... i watch em improvise......... in fact, i actually enjoy watching them fool around during rehearsals...........

i dun like being a stage manager cuz i can't b in charge of overseeing a variety of things........ rather, give me one goal to work towards and i will shine for u.........