y do we hafta feel obligations? y can't we just do what we wanna and not hafta feel obliged to do what other ppl want us to do? sigh........... and i thought i wld b free after this................

to do list for today and tomoro
- complete vca video to mail to vca by first wk of nov
- memorise mono for vca
- find a suitable venue to film e video
- get e video down to a vhs tape
- find time to bring e vhs tape to idp
- liaise w my sm bout cinderel-lah! wkshops
- look for poems for poetry slam
- drag myself to poetry slam
- get involved with poetry slam on 30thnov
- work out schedule w sm to make time for poetry slam tomoro and on e 30th

w do things have a way of piling up on u all at e same time?

20 times sex, 20 times sex
on a much lighter note, (and more fun note) reh today was wonderful....... eheheh...... and i thought it was gonna b a lil awkward and funny........ well looks like my fears were unfounded........ was rehearsing for e sexual abuse scene today...... haven't had such simple fun in a long time........ haven't had such a workout in quite a bit.......... it's really quite fun to have a guy touching u and u havin to act all scared and frightened like he's up to no good when u know he's not goin to go any further... AHAHHA~! but like cherrie says, she gets to have fun 3times w 2 guys, but i get to have real fun w the guy.................. ehehhe......... life is fair isn't it? HAHAHa~! kiddin mate.........

it's funny how 2hrs spent tryin to work out how to get physical w a stranger can make u more comfortable w em than 2yrs sittin in e same room w a classmate.......

'come to uncle........ come sit on uncles' lap.............'
oh yes, how could i resist................ how would i dare to resist.....

how do u resist someone w bulging biceps, triceps, u name e works.......... who looks like he cld crush a coke can w e crook of his elbow? and i thought i was strong........ AHHA!~

i think i'm losing it........ gets cranky under stress......