things are really going to be rather different around here........
slowly, gradually evryone's leavin, one after e other............. shld i count myself lucky i'm e last to leave? i always did prefer watchin ppl leave instead of leavin ppl................

if anything, i think i'm stronger now? least i dun think i cried an ocean when ling left......... a month ago i think i wld........... maybe cuz i'm numbed after havin so many ppl leave....... e sense of loss hasn't set in yet........ as of now i'm still numb........ in a limbo....... not really thinking or feeling anything.................. but i'll get used to it... gradually.......... it's a learning process, and i think i can take it...........

i laugh and shiver w dread now at e thought of leavin next jan.............. it would be highly comical if i were bawling my eyes out and not able to thank e ppl who came to see me off properly........ hehehe........ that wld b a real sight.............. then again........... wld there b many ppl to see me off? i dunno..........

wld i feel sad? excited? i have no idea..................

silly me........ got catch22 for ling to read on e plane as a farewell book cuz i think e book's really a gem man.............. and i forget to bring e book............ not very smart are we? i guess i've only got myself to blame........ shld have kept me room neat and tidy so it wldn't have been lyin under a pile of brochures and leaflets and library books and unwanted papers....... sigh............ but just as well........ readin on planes puts e lady to sleep........ and she might have arrived in england w a headache and motion sickness....... so mayb it was a good thing i forgot e book............... ***bites lower lip***