may the good Lord shine a light on you
make every song you sing your favourite tune
may the good lord shine a light on you
warm like the evening sun
- Shine A Light, Rollin Stones

yes truly...... the Lord has indeed been very kind to me........... even though i am most undeserving and unworthy of it........ He has reminded me not to forget why i'm doin all that i am, that all that i do, it is with a greater cause, that i practice my art for Him. thank u hannah for askin me to TAGS#4 and makin me realise, and not forget what my bigger purpose is.... not for self-gratification, but for Him.

today couldn't have been more wonderful......... i've not felt so joyous and loved in a long time..... and it's not an exuberant explosion of joy....... it's a kind of silent rapture that quiets e soul............. i feel peaceful and at ease, though i admit i wanted to bite off e head of irritatin security guards....... but i don't recall havin calmed down and eased my anger so quickly and quietly before....... it's e silent encompassing arms of warmth that envelop u and make u realise that there's no reason lettin all these ephemeral human temptations and disturbances trouble our state of peace and cause turmoil within............

small things : i made someone laugh..... a genuine chuckle and i could hear from his voice e lightenin of his mood....... it was late, and he still had to work...... but it made me feel glad that i did my bit to make things easier for him.......

i communicated pleasantly w my folks and told em e good news(which i'm gonna get to later) and my dad chuckled flippantly, yet i could sense how proud of me i made him feel........... and knowing that i made my dad proud makes me happy.........

i made it for TAGS#4 and it made me glad that even though i had a long day and i was tired and i couldnt find e 'circular building' and a certain paranoid security guard pissed e pants off me, i kept my cool and cooled off before e show so i cld enjoy it and it made me pleased that i kept my word to a friend that i would, knowing e hard work they had put in........

after like months of owning a certain untitled rolling stones song which i LOVE, i finally found e title and even lyrics of e song....... and it just completed e day by closing w e message.....

e cues for 'Balance' r really easy and all our runs have been nothing but smooth.......... and i'm startin to actually love e script....... it's beautiful... poetic and lyrical.......... sad, yet hopeful.......... i discover new meaning evrytime..........

okie big stuff......... : ***from least big to humongous***
- i'm havin rehearsal for STAGES tomoro... quite scary... but i'm gettin geared up for e scene frm macbeth....... it's a kinda mixed trepidation-cum-looking-forward........ weird........
- i signed e contract w tworks today and secured $300, half of my pay........... meaning i got more money in e bank, after cashin in $680 that day...........
- all my rehearsals fit in nicely side by side!!~! no dead-clashes!!~! i don't really have to sacrifice anything for another~! no opportunity cost~!
- went for a readin at dramaplus today and guess what??? i got another part in their schtour!!!!!~!~ it's 40shows!~ and i think e cast is nice~! e guy i did e readin for was GREAT!~ very nice friendly handsome ang-moh guy...........

it's all these little and not-so-little things that make me see e wonder of e Lord and how He can lift my day and thru such material and insignificant things make me see His love for me. these things may seem small or insignificant or even material, but they mean sth to me..... they all have symbolic meanings........ it's His way of guiding me on where to go, which way to turn, His way of assuring me that i don't have to worry too much, that evrything is safe in His hands............. but of course...... i have to b active too and listen to His calling and act on it....... if i don't find someone with a dvd player and vcr player and tv which are highly accessible, e audition video won't magically manifest on e tables of vca and monash and i'll magically get accepted........... which reminds me, i'd better stop procrastinating........ e Lord has been good to me and i should do my part for what i want too.......... i feel loved........... ***beambeam***