log 0250hrs: have ceased to think

have recessed to mindless activity and e occasional inconsequential ponderment upon certain practical matters and affairs that require more than just airy wisps of thought.........
have fallen in love w a musical......... ***again***............
realised that watching musicals a second time is more enjoyable.......... least for me...................
goodbye chicago, hello moulin rouge

absolutely love adore worship obssessed with taken by absorbed overpowered by ewan mcgregor's voice......... especially when he bursts into song with a resounding diaphragm supported note............. captivating...............

i wanna marry ewan mcgregor (in character, singing)
forget sex; courtship; flowers; kisses; love.........
just give me a cut-out and a stereo............... and i'll give u a happy girl................

beauty freedom truth love

i believe in those.............. does that make me a true blue bohemian-wannabe?
nope
does that make me an arty person?
nope
does that mean i'm a sap?
nope
it just means i'm an idealistic blob who's blinded by her own fantasies and doesn't recognise e world as it is................... sad sad sad............... ***clink*** to e saps...........

log 0314hrs: told u she's ceased to think and recessed to e airy depths of fantasy.............

log 0315hrs: it's easier to sit back and let thoughts occur rather than to search for em in e endless abyss of frontal lobes and grey mass................. or is that what we term laziness? dunno..... too lazy to say for sure............ let e thin fuzzy line that separates em stay thin and fuzzy.............. life's easier that way..................... where evrything's anything and anything's anything.............

log 0318hrs: and just when u thought u mattered..........
u don't

log 0319hrs: things change......... people change........... situations change................. affections change.............. minds change.............. people change............... attitudes change................. mindsets change..................... reactions change.................... feelings change..................... views change........................ bias inclination..................... towards.......... away............... from.

log 0322hrs: we change

log 0322hrs: cliches remain

log 0323hrs: forever is a lie. feelings lie. people lie. situations lie. even lies lie. we lie. we are a lie. we are the lie.

log 0325hrs: funny how a funny curly thing like 'f' can distinguish e difference between a lie and life............. but then again............... maybe they're pretty much e same..............

log 0328hrs: tired................. signing off to e reality of sleep.................. or to e lull of reality............. or to e outlet of escapism from reality.............. or e reality in our escapism................ sometimes all we are is a lie........ how we live is a lie........ what we live in is a lie..............

log 0335hrs: poker faced