it really sucks when u know that something's wrong and u wanna do something about it and help out e perosn that u care so much about but u can't simply because u're separated physically, and u know that if u were there u wld be able to make such a huge difference and feel so much reassured that u've got evrything under control even when it isn't.........................

imagine being away from ur family
and e people around u are all related, in one way or another.......... sister; brother; boyfriend..........
and u're just...... the friend.............. how does that feel? and u've been such a pushover and a real huge softie that u can't say no to em about anything but can only bottle things up and get all miserable and upset and e only chance of a consolation is a line that stretches hundreds of miles away................
u get pushed around, bullied, manipulated, taken advantage of, and u find it difficult to stand up for urself cuz all along u've been to nice and they've just gotten comfortable with exploiting u and u can't do a thing not to stand up for urself and put a cap on this manipulation cuz it wld sour e friendships........ e people closest to u.......... or so, u thought.................

how does that feel?

i wouldn't know............. but i can only imagine...........
yet it feels just as bad thinking about it and knowing that there's nothing i can do to help make things easier..........
i might risk spoiling things and causing a bigger rift than there already is, or i might cause more hurt to e person i so care about cuz his so-called 'friends' might over-react and start turning e tables on him and he's all alone and defenceless..........

i wish so badly that i was there to stand up for him and make sure that things wld be okie, and even if they weren't okie, that at least he wldn't be alone............. so badly..............