i conclude that if u're of e right age and know e right ppl u can get anywhere and anything.
it really makes u wonder whether talent is what u really need.......... all e cliched crap aside............ a gal whom was a writer, not performer was just givin stuff a try and auditionin just foe e heck of it... that was months ago.............. and now she's appearing in a play................. i'd b lying like a slimy lizard thru my crooked teeth if i said i wasn't envious like hell............ if u're e right age, have no commitments for e next millennia and know a few high and mighty ppl in a few dark orifices, then hey! u've got a part!~
how many ppl wld s.e.r.i.o.u.s.l.y consider a young(read:inexperienced), passionate(read:idealistic), willing to commit(read:cuz nobody else wants her) gal and give her sth of consequence to take up? they've prob frightened their pants off bout u not even screwing up!
and they say all's fair in love and war? this is war~! again discrimination and typecasting ppl!~ GRRR!
mayb i should just be content to spend e rest of my life as a brilliant lights op and sew my piehole up considering i at least have a stint that pays (though peanuts) while others don't............. yet that's not enough~!
anyone, be it a tom a dick or a nancy can be a lights op~! it takes only a lil something else to b a brilliant one and that's called
an sm........ and if e company's too stingy or poor to get one, then we resort to
cue sheets!~ there ain't no doubt bout it, bein a lights op is NO CAREER........... it holds abosolutely zilch career prospects........... hell~! no self respecting person wld call emselves
a professional lights op......... PLEASE!~ it's like referring to cows as bovine creatures and allligators w bad breath as part of e raptor family........... get over it! urgh!~
maybe i need a life........ hey! i've got a better idea......... i need a role!~ or mayb i just need reassurance.......... either way, i'm not goin to get any, cuz this game's just way too tough to play and i doubt i'm goin to plough my way thru it even though i
am ploughin my mindless head thru it
i just wonder if i'm gonna emerge all filthy and eroded, or if i'll submerge.........
