life is not a bed of roses
the course of true love never did run smooth
shit happens

blahblah......... cliches........... they all are........... but soemtimes when u set out to do something and it seems as if obstacle after obstacle keep presenting thenselvers in your face.............. just when u tihnk evrything's hunky-dory and u're in a state of utopia, wham! it hits u right smack in your face........ something staring at u all ablong but u never did notice................. fantastic............ it renders u almost back to square one...................... almost............. but not quite............

and i'm not tired, no............ i'm prepared to keep on fighting.......... i'm filled with faith.......... confidence.......... almost overflowing, matter-of-fact.............. can't say it's a bad thing............ but neither is it good............... pride comes before a fall........... but we gotta go about doing our stuff with confidence don't we? it's e confidence u exude that convinces people that it's worth investing in you.......................... but outside influences happen............... and these are things u hace absolutely ground-zero control over...............

i'm not saying i'm giving up, no........... neither am i succumbing to the unpredictable.............. but after overcoming 80% of your odds and things start to look great........ something comes along and just totally almost severs that thread u're hanging by................. it's almost killing.............. i'm not losing hope.............. i do think i'm too optimistic......... blind faith, i'd call it.............. over-confidence? maybe.............. naivety, definitely................... greenhorn, no doubt.......... but whatever......... i'm prepared to face it head on............ and whether or not i'm charging fullspeed w no leash or saftely harness and plummeting headlong into a pitchblack abyss, bring it on............. evrything's already laid out for me and i see no alternatives around it................ i'm meeting it head-on.............. God speed.