am super super SUPER SUPER irritated....................

i go to sch today and my main purpose is to print out stuff i sent myself thru e email cuz my printer at home has been offline for years.......... and what happens? i JUST realise that i forgot to do it.............. 12hrs later........... after leaving sch............. e realisation hits me that i forgot to do e one thing that was really important.......... but nevermind.......... i can always make another trip back tomoro........... cuz i'm not causing anyone else any inconvenience....... as if that's not bad enough..............

whatever happened to responsibility? when i promise someone sth.......... or set myself out to accomplish a task for someone............. i jolly fucking well do it.................. it's alrite if i let myself down............. cuz i dun hurt anyone else................ but it's just plain bad when i let other ppl down cuz effectively i'm bein a helluva selfish person by doin so and misusing others' trust in me.......................

hence i say i am fucking justified at bein fuckingly out of my mind pissed w some prick who took on e task willingly of doin e tsd public performance and making a copy for evryone........... i mean.......... fine, if u can't finish it and it's too great a task........... don't take it on in e first place~! dun try and act big..... pretend macho and yaya-papaya bout it............. u can't accomplish it, u jolly fucking well pass it onto someone who can............ but of course, e dick-infused brain does not, and cannot see things that way............. it puts up a puffed up front, false bravado, and says 'yes, don't worry, i will get it done'......................

eight months later? no news............... after endless smses............. a confident reply of 'yeah, yeah...... i'll get it done before i enlist'.................

time flies........... enlistment came and went.................. no sight of vcd...........

one month after enlisting and many smses chasing e prick............ and TWO weeks before e deadline for my scholarship application......... says 'sure, will get it done'............

three fucking days before deadline............. says he'll send it in e mail..............
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WHO THE FUCK WORKS ON A SUNDAY AFTERNOON???~!?!?~!?~??!?~!?!~ EVEN SUPERMAN NEEDS A FUCKING BREAK FROM SAVING E CHEEBYE WORLD FROM SELF-DESTRUCTION

if all goes well and e nice ppl in e post-office w absolutely no job satisfaction r efficient enough, i'll prob received e vcd say.. when? earliest tues afternoon? and e deadline's wed......... i STILL gotta record it to vhs tape................ and mind u............. these are the very ppl who screwed up a mere card sent by courier......... we paid 24 bloody bucks to deliver e card within three working days............... and it never got to it's destination til a freakin month later.......... and e person had to go to e post office to collect it........... how efficient............ no exacerbation in practice here......... total facts...... so i'm supposed to hope to get my bloody vcd within 3 days thru e normal snailmail when even ems speedpost doesn't work? tough luck........... can probably forget bout my dreams of a scholarship............

but that's not what i'm concerned bout, gettin e scholarship................ my main gripe is that i actually put two lovely lovely lovely wonderful teachers thru one day of unnecessary stress and gettin my referral done in a day..... less than 24hrs!~!~! we all know how shitty and sticky writing those letters can be....... and despite all e crap of e a-levels and yr1 monos, they actually thrashed it thru in a day.................. and someone can't bloody make e freakin vcd in what?!~?~!?!? NINE MONTHS?~!?!~?!?~?! most females can readily conceive and produce a screaming pinkish-red lump from in between their legs in the given time frame!~ i seriously don't see how it is physically possible that he can't do e same with a insignificant tiny vcd................. given how much he prides himself on being the techonology whiz and all...........

i mean.............. are you doing justice to the two lovely people who help others willingly without getting anything back?!?~ how can u even co-exist alongside such wonderful people?!~? you're bloody tainting the human race and giving 'mankind' a bad name!!!!~!!~ urgh!~

it's not so much bout gettin e scholarship application done.................. i mean........... my parents can afford to send me over anytime.......... i just have to say when......... i'm just tryin to b a good daughter and tryin to lighten their load.................... what pisses me off is why can't people keep their promises? i can't they stick to their word? i'm not saying i do all e time.......... i'm not perfect, nobody is..................... but at least i try.............. i don't see him tryin............ is it really that difficult to just not think about ourselves for once? this comes across as ironic cuz here i am, ranting and raving about myself and my application and how someone totally pissed me off.......... and i'm saying we shld think for others sometimes........................ i'm just so tired............... of trying............. of even being............... of.........

i give up