it feels as if the transition has been completed.............

it's like me being able to drive has brought a conclusion to my brother's departure........... that i'm able to fit into his shoes.............. and boy.... they weren't exactly e smallest shoes to fill.............. i've successfully taken over e responsibilities of being e eldest child around........... handling all e barang barang stuff..........
the tension that has been emveloping me the past 4days has finally vaporised magically........... i can now talk freely bout my bro.... so cna my mum.............except my dd..... whose eyes i notice........ still redden whenever we talk bout him......... or is it just me? who would have thought e toughest, immovable figure in e family is e softest, most broken one............ i still miss him......... and e void is still ever so present........... but i've come to terms w and accepted his departure.............. and i've reached e stage of takin over his household responsibilities........... taking his place in e familial hierarchy of responsibilities and errand running..............

well............ it's like now i can really get on with life.............. i can leave e burden behind........... e burden of fearing that i'll never live up to his standards......... the resolution has been complete.... the key's fit into the lock and things can run smooth now....................