will i become a struggling actress trying to make ends meet? screing up evry audition i go to and not landing any roles? or worse still, being told to 'come back and audition after you've learnt how to act'.............. what would i do then? i have no confidence, no faith, no determination, no connections, no money, no job, no talent, no opportunites, no strings to pull, no ability, no perseverence, no security... nothing............. nothing that sets me apart from e layman you pick out on a busy friday afternoon along orcrhard road................

i am so scared.............
i feel so vulnerable