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Wednesday, December 04, 2002
 
gagged and tied to a sinking ship......
i'm so tired, so so tired.............. in erwin's words, 'my a's has just ended, and i'm tired, i don't have the time present myself as some form of entertainment for the school, it's just a bloody prom'
yeah! u go boy!!!!!!!!!
well............. easy for me to say........ it's so often we talk big, put on false bravado, only to hicken out and succumb to peer pressure at the last minute.........
i am so tired, so so tired............
i have not had a decent night's sleep ever since the a's started................

i woke up at 5 fucking a.m. today....... so don't nobody tell me not to get pissed........it's the least u can let me do.......

there was a bloody blackout at my house......... conveniently while my parents are away on holiday........ again........... why does shit always happen when u're least prepared to accept it? bloody freaking hell........... woke up cuz e air con was off and it was a freakin hell-hole in my room....... at 0513hrs........ by e time e people from e public utilities board came it was like already 6?? and by e time they were done it was 715.......... so much for sleep....... and i was supposed to meet soe people at 9 ...... like thanks man.......... there goes my sleep........ FUCK......... okie? that's my sole outlet of expression........ i can't say a thing, neither can i do a shit when everybody else is getting worked up and losing their heads and their cool, talking pessimistic......... u know......... pessimism doesn't really contribute much??? gee..... didn't take me much to figure that one out.......... bloody freaking hell......... just dig me a hole and i'll pay you to loan it to me, least i can have some peace and quiet and rest there............

three straight days of meeting early in the morn.......... lastin till late after noon.......... faced with an answerless question thrown in our faces....... i didn't finish my a's to be thrown into this shit.............. what's w e prom crap? can't we just all go along merrily and have fun? bloody hell........ this is turning out worse than ever............. why's it that such things always happen to me? things that are 'supposed to be fun' always become monsters in the end................. it was e same with faculty captain, group, and now prom?!~?!?~?! fuck okie? fuck this, fuck it, fuck it all........ i'm through with this crap.......... why is it that people act up at the smallest change in plans? can't they just keep their heads on their shoulders and THINK!?~?!?~! is that word so foreign?? think?!~?!? i have enough on my mind to worry bout urs okie?? we;'re in this together and contrary to your lil brain, i AM experiencing the same shit too........ don't panic and start gettin crazy and expect me to come up with immediate answers.......... i dunno what u think bout me, but here's a start, i'm h u m a n.... gee... didn't occur to u that u weren't the only living thing in this world? how surprising..........
freaking hell
bite me

j u s t l e a v e m e a l o n e

fuck

 

 
   
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