as if the techno version of 'careless whisper' wasn't bad enough, they had to go and play the techno version of 'always on my mind'...... ***ouch***...... thanks man........ they've just successfully degraded the world's best love song to something ah-lian and ah-beng wanna-bes can appreciate......... i love this world man................

fear
what would you do if you didn't fear?
honestly? i dunno.......... would you go ahead and do what you wanted to do cuz the fear doesn't exist and hold you back anymore? or would the thought of doing it not even cross your mind cuz you don't fear it and therefore it doesn't bother you at all?
fear
of?
rejection? inadequancy? love? vulnerability? truth? commitment? independence? trust? betrayal? deception? communication? disappointment?
don't these characteristics make us the humans we are? yet are they the very things that hold us down from truly living life?
the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down
the child who clings to his mother will never learn to walk on his own and will eventually fall behind his counterparts........
just when you think you've found a perfect solace, an ideal hiding hole, life comes and kicks you in the arse, leaving you high and dry......... and sends your preconceived notion shattering into fragments of glass shards which cause you to bleed if you so much as attempt to catch onto them...........

to each his own
but what if society doesn't accept your kind?
the stars don't revolve around you, you orbit around them......... the whole world doesn't stop turning so that you can reminiscense on past sweet times......... u stop for a moment and it leaves you stranded and lost...... with no guiding light...........

everyone else expects you to understand them......... but the problem is........ they don't even understand you.......... how do you attempt to understand someone that doesn't even understand you? who expects you to understand them when you're expecting them to understand you?

to some people it's an all-or-nothing situation....... either you devote yourself to our friendship totally, or let's not be friends........ to others it's an i'll-take-what-i-can-get kinda thing........ if someone gives, you reciprocate............. if nothing's done, that's it, nothing's done.................
me? i'm the latter........ the only person who truly understands my stand on this: my brother....... i totally understand his problems now, about how his friends just approach him to look for his best friend, and how this other friend conveniently leaves him out of the discussion of them getting a lodging together in australia where they're studying........ it's as if he's mr. invisible............ i can empathise with him and connect with his indignation and anger......... when he gives a certain amount out, he expects the same amount back, and he's not getting it........... i can feel his hurt and pain, masked under his anger and indignation........ yet there's nothing i can do, or say to make him feel better..... to make things better.......... it seems as if the one person he trusts most and connects with the most is isolated from him even now......... and he's left stranded on his own island............ no one to call his own......... what do you do when the supposed closest person to you lets you down? when he just can't seem to put himself in your shoes? what then? moan and groan? move on? thrash things out? leave things be? nothing seems to be able to be done can it?

You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark alone
Waiting there for me to come back

I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to the sea
And I wanna be with you
And you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me to
come back

I'm to afraid to show
- 'Stranded' , Plumb

Thought of the Day
if we don't judge people by our own standards, then by whose standards do we judge them by?

to those who say they don't judge people, ballocks...... it's a whole buncha bull.........

Quote of the Day
'We're all bastards. Each one more than the other.' - "The Vultures"

Oxymoron of the Day
Life is slow dying..........

so tired
so jaded
so lost
wandering aimless,
wondering if what once was,
still is.........