just some thoughts on love and marriage after a talk with 'mah girlfriend' justyn......... u rock on girl!!!! ***gringrin***

we sit in silence
a marriage license
is all you know, all you know, all you know

we sit and chew gum
watch television
and you know, and you know, and you know

that there's oceans between us
light years that screen us
oceans that drift away
oceans that fade to grey

we sit and rot here
resenting each year
will you go, will you go, will you go

we sing the old songs
the beatbox plays on
and you know, and you know, and you know

that there's oceans between us
light years that screen us
like oceans we drift away
oceans we fade to grey

between us there's oceans
there's life in slow motion
quietly we drift away
quietly we fade to grey
- 'Oceans' , Suede

can't you see i love you
please don't break my heart in two
that's not hard to do
cuz i don't have a wooden heart

and if you say goodbye
then i know that i will cry
maybe i would die
cuz i don't have a wdooen heart

there's no strings upon
this love of mine
it was always you from the start

teat me nice treat me good
treat me like you really should
cuz im not made of wood
and i don't have a wooden heart

cuz i don't have a wooden heart
- 'Wooden Heart' , Lizard's Convention

"people don't get together in one day, amidst those 6,7 years, at least half of the years are spent building on trust. I give my guy 5 years =P he has 5 years to know me and gain my trust, before I start officially dating him.. and then I can marry him within the next 1-2 years =P it's not the dating part, it's the part before dating"

funny that never occured to me......... i always thought (and kinda still do) that it's really a scary notion to date a person for a couple of years.. say 6-7....... then decide u wanna spend e rest of your life with that person............... well............ 6-7 years is a helluva short time if u think about the lifetime you're gonna be spending with that person................ but well.............. like someone pointed out above............ it's not the dating part that's important............ it's the before dating that matters...... where you earn each other's trust and learn to put yourself in each other hands and know that person will take the utmost care of you............ still.......... it's a daunting thought to consider.................. what if it's wrong? people change afterall don't they? what then?
times have changed........... people do get together in a day............... the teenage couples that we see around us...... it's all in the name of fun......... they're debauching the name of love............ how can they take it so lightly? 'not happy ah? break lorh'......... that's such a common phrase isn't it? what's fast becoming of our society and it's people? are we all like that? or is it just a minority? or the vast majority? it bothers me...........
in this sea of people how am i supposed to know who's the one for me? unlike most young people nowdays, i believe in the one.......... kinda outdated as it may sound................ but i believe that there's someone made out for everyone out there............ and no matter where you go or what you do and what happens to you......... you'll find each other.............. that's a consoling thought........... unless of course my one met with a fatal car accident when he was nine and i never got to meet him........... then that's plain sad.............. i'm destined to a life of spinsterhood.............. whoppie-doo-dah................
there're just too many questions to ask and no answers to find................ i guess i shall take a break and dun strain the brain............. sleep should do me good.......... it's time i turned in anyway................ goodnite world..............