How Emotional Are You?
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Balanced. You accept your emotions as normal and are not overly happy nor depressed. You are emotionally balanced and should find peace in the way you deal with life situations. Your emotions are normal and well understood. You see the light in the dark.

am i?? hmm.......... yet there are time when i walk along the dark tunnel and i just wish for a bomb to cause it to cave in and bury all along with it.......... it's not suicidal, it just makes everything easier to deal with..... by obliterating everything, there's nothing.............. talk about the easy way out................. ***reassuring smile to the comrades of mine who feel undeserving, anguish, pain, indignance, frustration, desperation.... we're all in this together......***

well................... thank you, all you darlings who shared my anguish and frustration.............. you took time and energy out of your packed life and share it with me, and i am thankful for the emotional support.... plus mental support............. it truly showed me that i am not alone in this, and that even in times when it seems as if the tunnel's about to collapse, there are people outside of it enforcing it with pillars.........

i was just reading King Lear, and it chanced upon me how hypocritical humans are............. how behind the masks that we put on we can hurt people and not feel the least shard of remorse................ also........... that lear himself.............. who loved cordelia the most concealed it before his court, yet he wanted to bestow upon her the largest and best share of his kingdom when he pretended that all was the same.............. why can't we show our true self? is it that when we do others would not accpet us? or is it that we ourselves, are unable to accept the ugly beings that we are? how do we live with ourselves? shakepseare wrote the play in medieval times, and i'm sure it was with regard to the state of his society.......... and this ugly truth applies even now........... when we're supposedly more civilised and advanced........... yet our morality has stayed the same.................. as much as i am put off by the notion....... i cannot help but know that i am like that too....... we all are.......... that is what defines us as humans...... is it not?
how do i live with myself?

"My eyes were in tears before yours saw the truth." - Kadmos , The Bacchae

we all cry Soulitary........... be it inwardly or outwardly............. but the important thing is accepting it and coming to terms with it................ we have no control over what happens around us and to us...... however people chose to think of us, do for us, do to us, these are all outside of our grasp................ yet the one thing we are totally in control of is how we feel, and it is this that determines us as individuals.................... some people are blessed that they attract company and pillars of support for them, others are less fortunate, they do not have the luxury of an endless pool of 'adoring adorable people' at their feet........... yet the one thing that matters is how they react to their surroundings................... it is no use feeling undeserving for what you have......... it only makes things worse........ it is a given, and with this given, you can achieve great things............ utilise this pool of potential you've got and make the best out of it, instead of harping on the fact as to why it's you, and not someone else who's got the luxury........... the way to break the illusion is to accept it and come to terms with it, then can you break it and form a new foundation for a greater dream......... "I...am...George....I...am...." just like Martha, we're all beings who need to tear others down to bring ourselves up............ but it is often the ones whom we tear down who make us see how low-down we are, and we require their strength to build ourselves up again................

TRUTH, you are savage... - Kadmos, The Bacchae

would you be my lover?
would you be the one?
would you be like no other?
for how long?

yes, i'll be your wild flower
grown through e concretes
and born to the backbeat of the stars

yes, i'm just a stupid guy
crushed like a butterfly
dead-eyed at the drive-by in a car

like flies on a windscreeen
like insects in glue
we could stick together
if u wanted to

yes, i'll be your wild flower
grown through the concrete streets
and born to the backbeat of e stars

yes, i'm just a stupid guy
crushed like a butterfly
dead-eyed at the drive-by in a car

you're a stupid guy
crushed like a, a butterfly
dead-eyed at e drive-by in a car
- "Untitled" , suede