highlight of the day, conceived at burger king, parkway at ????hrs.....................

Top 10 Pet Peeves
note: they're all numbered the way they are for a reason...........
1. Being ignored
1. People hitting me on the head
1. People playing games on my phone
1. Taking my pens from my pencil case without asking and putting it back the wrong way(yes...... there is a certain way to put it back in case you're wondering............ don't try.......)
1. My lil bro using my mug....... or anybody else for that matter........ i'm rabid......
1. My lil bro going through my stuff without my permission while i'm out
1. Crowds...... Lord help me......... especially pushy crowds........ (somebody hand me a magnum .38)
1. People copying my idiosyncracies/phrases
1. Bending the spine of my books or dog-earing the pages
1. Being nagged at when i'm so absolutely having a bad day or just plain watching tv
1. Being told to study when i am so obviously under-your-nose studying

okie.... so i've got 11............. so? what'd i say about being nagged at? ***evil eye***
it's funny how certain mundane insignificantly meaningless things in everyday life can just put us off so much we wanna take a gun to the nearest person's head........... which might just happen to be that of the person that pissed you off.............. not that that's really important........... if we stop from our daily chores and take a look around us for once, we'd be surprised at how fortunate we are, to actually be able to even speak a language properly without much difficulty...... we don't realise this great furtune we've got.... there're adults........ way into their mid-lives and some of them can't even muster a proper sentence without much difficulty.......... and here i am, rambling away......... how ofen do we stop and count our blessings? that we actually have the privilege of a computer when there're countless children throughout the world without food, clothing and shelter? hmmm............... makes me wonder about the fairness of life........ some people are born with a silver spoon in their mouth and have it going go good with their personal chauffers that they don't even know how to flag a bus........... whereas other people don't even have the opportunity to take a bus even if they desperately wanted to........... how fair is this life? are we gonna succumb to this fatalism and not do a thing about it? but even so, what can we do? ***sigh*** no use pondering about it right? doesn't make things any bit better...............
on a brighter note................ i went to bluenote yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it was F A N T A S T I C .............. man............. if ever there was anything called good music...... that was it........... absolutely fell in love with ublues and their friends rendition of 'ain't no sunshine'........ mind-blowing.............. ***phew*** though the music was a tad loud...... hannah and i left bluenote with our ears ringing........... ehehhe.......... only started to clear up when we got to the train station and it was dead silent......... ehheh........... but it was definitely enjoyable and memorable............... something to remember............ wow.......... and and and............ i got to talk to trevor jalla!!! the lead vocalist of e ublues band........... well.......... i really look up to the guy.......... he's like only 22....... and he's doing what he enjoys doing...... which is making music...... and he's making a living from it......... i look at my bro who's also 22.......... but he's still serving his national service and still getting his allowance from my dad and still asking for money from my mum when he wants to purchase another piece of high fashion clothing......... quite a gaping difference ain't it? well............ i hope that when i'm 22........ i'll be able to say i'm enjoying what i'm doing.............. be it a a profession that pays peanuts or something that requires me to sweat my arse off for little returns......... but i don't wanna look back and regret what i've done............... i want to look back in pride and honour and not in anger and pain.......... which is something i promise myself......
i was studying with beautiful today..... and when she left to visit the washroom after her mum had come to look for her......... it struck me that everyday we come across so many people that live such different lives from us, yet we don't really notice or take heed of it............ i saw the way in which beautiful treated her mum and i saw the beautiful loving relationship that existed between them....... it was one of love and respect and care............. and i thought back to my mum and me........... one would never see me and my mum going hand in hand like beautiful and her mum....... much less me kissing her hand like what beautiful............ and i felt.......... like a was an outsider observing all this from another world............... is this because there's not enough love in my own universe? that i've been bred in a conventional, uptight chinese family that believe strictly in keeping the lines between each other very clear? i dunno.......... the last and only time i told my brother i loved him was over the phone and it was a relayed message through his friend.......... and my mum demanded who it was i was speaking to......... and she proceeded to tell me not to hang out with my bro and his friends too much as it would affect my studies................... what logic is this? what familial love is this? i can't even tell my bro i love him without my mum cracking up.......... is it how it's supposed to be? that blood's thicker than water and we can't proclaim our love for this blood relation? ironic isn't it? i seriously canot see the light in this situation....... can someone please enlighten me? i'm really groping for my way in this dark alleyway we call love and i'm really afraid i'll get lost along the way.......... or even hurt....... won't somebody hold me hand? when will be the day when i can truly open up myself and let the people i care about know that i love them without fear of being judged by others? especially others whom i love too? it hurts when we display our feelings and are cut down by the ones we love........... i'm always envious of others who can be so open with their feelings.......... why can't i be the same? am i to be stuck in the cage they call love? whilst other's is an endless lake they swim in mine is a stagnant pond that's mossy and grimy........... not a pretty sight is it? hmmm............ mayb all it needs is a lil sunlight to be introduced to it............. i wonder........... but when will the sunlight shine through the towering trees that surround it? matter of time i suppose? i can only try.................

I don't want to wonder
If this is a blunder
I don't want to worry whether
We're gonna stay together
'Till we die

I don't want to jump in
Unless this music's thumping
All the dishes rattle in the cupboards
When the elephants arrive

I want to love you madly
I want to love you now
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly

I don't want to fake it
I just want to make it
The ornaments look pretty
But they're pulling down the branches
Of the Tree

I don't want to think about it
I don't want to talk about it
When I kiss your lips
I want to sink down to the bottom
Of the sea

I don't want to hold back
I don't want to slip down
I don't want to think back to the one thing that I know I
Should have done

I don't want to doubt you
Know everything about you
I don't want to sit across the table from you
Wishing I could run
- "love you madly' , Cake

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she always gone too long anytime she goes away

Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away

And I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know

Hey I'll leave the young thing alone
But ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
- 'Ain't No Sunshine'

why do we face the sun when it starts to rain
when the rain don't fall we start to pray
when will we embrace the truth and say
that our lives are full of misguided ways