ceteris paribus
when all things remain constant........... does it mean that we remain constant too? or do we change as the things that surround us remain constant?
"ceteris paribus is our name.......... darrell justin azrul and fong.........you know it can't go wrong........."
today was the last time i'll ever hear ceteris paribus sing, probably............., the loss is great............ but i guess the thought and knowledge of my jc life ending is greater............ or rather... already ended............. sigh............ surprisingly i didn't cry today.. ahah......... i amaze myself at times yah? well............ there were moments when i was on the fringe of tears..... but i somehow held it back....... and they never came to be............... is this an accomplishment? why the need to conceal my feelings and nostalgia? is this how we've come to live our lives in this artificial world? where we can't show our true feelings? else at the risk of being labelled a freak? but or is it that we've gotta be in control of our emotions? well.......... i'm pretty much in control.......... i think........... ehehh..... but i'm sure ling-yu and chinwei'll think otherwise............ hehhe.......... what with my incessant one-sided conversations with myself......... car-watching and my obsession with them, unable to tear my eyes away from the road when i should be concentrating on my studying........... commenting to myself the colours.. or rather......... the lack of colours of singaporean cars..... and protons............ ahha............. if only we could live our life like that, passing our time away idly........... taking time off to notice the smaller, mundane things in life........... we wouldn't be needing psychiatrists would we?

the greatest ct an arts class can have
my sincerest apologies to our dear mr teo........... who braved cold sprays and us hot on his heels to let us off early every lesson.............. really hope you'll enjoy the keep-mr-teo-sane kit we've got for you........................ was our brainchild......... ehehhe......... totally innocent fun yah? contrary to popular belief... we are not a bunch of depraved kids with raging hormones who're out of control.............. we're worse........ eheheh........... well....... hope u didn't get into much trouble today after the lil cooling down you got from us............. ***gringrin***.......... i'm glad i had the honour of being the first to commit the act.......... ehhhehe.............. hope you weren't too miffed by it........... we love you lots!!!!!!!!! take care and put the kit to good use yah?? dun let our efforts go to waste...... ehehhe.... you still owe us a pubbing experience........ ***threatening look***

we had our first ever almost complete class outing......... wow................ we went to tandoori.......... fond memories... awww............. sigh................. now they're just wisps..... gotta let go of them yet i can't bear to............ wanna grab onto em but they slip through my fingers.............. ummm................. wonderful memory............. just a pity that it had to occur on our last day together officially as a class................... it's odd isn't it? when the best thing always happens at the last monent...... but not sooner.............. if it had occured sooner would we have not cherished it just as much? but the memory would be longer.... yet would it be just as sweet? remains a mystery to me..........

2j
oh sigh......... met an old friend............... more memories.................... just found out i dun really keep in touch much with my sec2 class............ which was really close-knit.......... almost the closest class i've ever been in..................... somehow............ the reminiscing felt kinda artificial............ fake.................. the girl was a real close friend of mine..... but well.............. things just turned sour..................... she's still as loud and brash............ no change.......... maybe louder and more in-your-face............ some people never change yah? well............... she said the same thing of me............... no complains................ it's the way things turn out......... how some people say things yet you wonder............ do they really mean it? or are they just saying it plainly for the sake of saying it? or are they saying it just to play the good guy? when behind your back they'll go bitching about u................. it works both ways............. doesn't it? i do the same thing don't i? if not, what am i doing now if not bitching? about her and her flippant suggestions of a class gathering 4 years after the class has gone separate ways and no one knows where everyone else is.............. she suggests and we all say YEAH good idea!.......... but do we really mean it too? or are we just patronizing them? can we ever live without this mask of deceit? or is it just an essential tool of survival??

oh man..................... so many things happened today.......... my mind's in a jumble............... the day was poignant, fun, glad, gossipy, frustrating, intriguing, sweet......... i can't pen them all down.......... i'm at a loss now............ sigh................

cherbert
thanks you both sweeties................... the card was really touching............. didn't see it coming.............. told myself i wanted to write a lil card to all the yr1s i know......... tsd, class, hockey, fac capts.............. but well............ it'll take me till next yr to do it....... knowing what a proscratinator i am.............. was really a nice pleasant lil surprise to find that two special people found the effort to do something for me................. awww.............. it's the lil things we do that touch our hearts so much............... if only we could each take a il time out evryday to do a lil something special for the people that matter to us................ then things would be a whole lot easier wouldn't they? no need for friendship day or birthdays to do nice things for each other............... everyday is just as special if the thought's genuine....................

everyday it's getting closer
going faster than a roller coaster
a love like yours would surely come my way

everday seems a little faster
all my friends they say go on up and ask her
a love like yours would surely come my way

everyday it seems a little stronger
everyday it lasts a little longer
come what may do you ever long for
true love from me

a love like yours would surely come my way
everyday
- 'everyday' , james taylor