the bachelor? or the desperado? the hum sat guy perhaps?

i don't believe myself............. i don't believe myself............ i don't believe myself...........

i actually watched 'the bachelor'............ actually sat through the whole thing........... sheesh.......... and i can honestly say i am disgusted at myself; america tv; humans; the world............ how can we stoop so low as to display our private lives and thoughts on international tv? to actually witness the machinations and schemings of our own kind unfold at their own pace is suicide...... moral suicide...............

imagine the 15 'lucky' elated women gloating over the 'misfortune' and 'broken-hearts' of the other 10 women, while they hype themselves up for what's in for them.......... how can they say goodbye and wish each other luck when all they wanna do is maul the gorgeous voluptuos lady standing opposite them who got what they couldn't have? to comprehend this takes more them i can muster......... to willingly put themselves in this potentially heat-rending situation........... madness.......... but as they say, there's no gain without risk............. but still............ to pit yourself against 24 other women for some guy you've never met before, only incessantly heard about so much on tv, radio......... takes a real lack of brains doesn't it? or maybe i'm just being skeptical? i dunno.......... but i honestly cannot believe how we can go about finding true love through such ways; scheming against the people living alongside you, going through the exact same situation as you, thinking the same thoughts as you.......... wanting the same guy as you.............. sheesh............... and you see him on e trailers, going about on his dates, kissing and making out fervently like a dog in the heat, while claiming to look for 'the one'.............. right.......... i so believe him......... as if he weren't in for the sex and physicality........... admit it......... it's all about physical externalities....... then comes the connection............ if she's a bomb...... pick her up............... if she ain't hot.. drop her like a hot potato........ ha.. so to speak...............
man we disgust me............... or am i being pure judgmental vindictive unforgiving biased cynical and close-minded?
never was a fan of reality tv anyway............ so sue me....................