you know........... i can't help but wonder what i'm gonna do in future........ i read my school's magazine yesterday......... brandan marc fernandez (yes cherrie and angie....... it's LINDA...... not leslie......... ***triumphant look***) was interviewed in it, and he was formerly of my school too................ he's now, as he himself wryly puts it, "in a state 85% of actors worldwide are: unemployed".......... and i can't help but wonder: so what does he do now that he's unemployed? he's only 22 this year and he would have been a 2nd year law student if he hadn't chanced upon tsd........ so now that he's chosen this path.......... what does he do now that he's awaiting the results of his auditions? does he actually attend school still? if so, where? does he bum his time away? idling away and waiting for a successful audition to come by? how does he make a living this way? i've set my heart on living out the path he's taken too, chosing to further my theatrical knowledge in england for the next three years after i graduate from college................. but then again......... i've got friends who tell me that if i'm keen on entering the thesbian circle then why bother with the degrees and such? they don't really play a huge part in landing a role in a play and i see their point.......... apparantly branden fernandez isn't really studying now ( i think) and he started auditioning after/during? his ns days.......... and i could do the same! what's with going abroad and getting the theory when i can stay local and attain the practical experience? i could end up like him: doing what i love and enjoying it, carefree and boundless............... most people would tell me it's risky and impractical.......... but if it can save me time and my parents money.......... why not? but ultimately, it is a humongous step and i'm not sure i have the courage and confidence to do it........ what then? what now? the thing is that whether i have a degree in theatre or not, it doesn't make a difference.......... it's the experience that matters isn't it? so what if i have an extensive knowledge of greek theatre and the different genres of theatre? am i actually going to apply it when i'm acting onstage? i can read it up on my own in my spare time when i'm "unemployed"............. can't i? the knowledge is going to fade away......... but the stage experience increases with each passing play............. so how now brown cow? dilemma............... trust my gut or go with the flow? uncertainty abounds............................................