how funny it is to take a step away from the hustle-bustle of everyday activity and just look in on the things you do.................. and you might actually wonder 'Sheesh! did i do that?!~'......... 'Bloody hell!~ you mean i actually said THAT?!'................ yet it's amusing how we don't realise it when we're so caught up with the 'crises' life throws at you...... or rather.......... throws you into.......................
take a look around and we see the pothole-infested cyanide-laced playground we call Life............... what a bright and cheerful sight............. gee, it really looks as if it holds many promises and unexpected surprises for us........... ***punpunpun***

we stumble and we fall
but we've still got to finish it off
from the crowd, this overwhelming call
how are we supposed to react?
except to struggle, and claw...

it seems like we spend our whole life hankering and looking for that someone or something............. and at the end of the road when we've got it.......... it is really what we thought it was? is it really what we wanted in the first place? how often have we come across this scenario and pretended that we're happy......... content with our find and giving ourselves a lil pat on the back........... when at the back of our minds there surfaces a tiny thought of vagueness and insecurity............. we try all our lives to suppress this and hold it in, suffocating it and refusing to let it take seed in our lives......................
othertimes what we're searching for is playing peek-a-boo with us right under our noses............ and we just fail notice it................. is it short-sightedness............... escapism.................... or plain stupidity? we often tend to look for the unattainable and strive for the unreachable............. so much so that we neglect the beauty that surrounds us on our human ground.............. such is the perfect flaw that we humans have............. we can't help but love each other for it................. as they say in greek tragedy.......... this is our hemartia...... our fatal flaw.............. that causes our ultimate downfall as humans........... hmm.......... interesting...............
it is so so so easy to overlook and is placed in our faces and yet look towards the horizon and seek for greener pastures.............. sounds familiar? well......... that's how we all are...................... (trivia: isn't it interesting how overlook and oversee seem as is they are the same yet actually mean totally opposite things? hehehe......... now....... THAT's a thought eh?) but well............... it's not to say that we're all like that and all the time........................... there are exceptions and isolated cases........... but that's just what they are........... exceptions and isolated cases...............
me? well.............. i'm just what i am.......... disillusioned and blinded.............. by the truth of things..... and to the truth............. whichever works....... they're one and both the same......................... like some bloke in some movie once said before ......"you can't handle the truth".......... can i?

nothing's so loud
as hearing when we lie
the truth is not kind
and you've said neither am i
but the air outside so soft is saying everything
everything
all i want is to feel this way
to be this close
to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks
i feel it say
nothin's so cold
as closing the heart when all we need
is to free the soul
but we wouldn't be that brave i know
but the air outside so soft confessing everything
everything
and it won't matter now
whatever happens to me
though the air speaks of all we'll never be
it won't trouble me
and it feels so close
let it take me in
let it hold me so
i can feel it say...

the sky is crying
can you see the tears roll down the street
the sky is crying
can you see the tears roll down the street
i've been looking for my babe yeah
and i wonder where can she be

but well.............. regardless of whatever we see...... or don't see in this place of ours............. there's always one person we know we can turn to................ who'll carry us upon His shoulders and lift us up when we're down in the depths............. who'll tend to our invisible wounds....... the ones that we don't even know exist........ for it is what we don't know that poses true harm to us................. so let us pause and take a lil time off our mundane stagnant ineffectual selfish lives and reflect..............

And here's to you, mrs Robinson
Jesus loves you more than you will know (whoa whoa whoa)
God bless you, please, mrs Robinson
Heaven holds a place for those who pray (hey hey hey, hey hey hey)

but sometimes...................... is it all worth it in the end? is all the hurt and betrayal worth anything? i wonder...................
"is this the promised end? or image of the horror?"

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if you could only see the way she loves me
than maybe you would understand
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
if you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
when she says she loves me

well you got your reasons
and you got your lies
and you got your manipulations
that cut me down to size

saying you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't

seems the road less travelled
show happiness unravelled
and you've got to take a little dirt
to keep what you love
that's what you gotta do

saying you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't
stretching out your arms to something that's just not there
saying you love where you stand
you give your heart when you can

saying you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't
saying you love where you stand
you give your heart when you can

if you could only see the way she loves me
than maybe you would understand
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
if you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
when she says she loves me